The
True Nature of Love
Part 3: Love as a Vibrational Frequency
“Truth,
in my understanding, is not an intellectual concept. I believe
that Truth is an emotional-energy, vibrational communication to my
consciousness, to my soul/spirit - my being, from my Soul. Truth
is an emotion, something that I feel within.
It is that feeling within when someone says, or writes, or sings,
something in just the right words so that I suddenly feel a deeper
understanding. It is that "AHA" feeling.
The feeling of a light bulb going on in my head. That "Oh,
I get it!" feeling. The intuitive feeling when something
just feels right . . . or wrong. It's that gut feeling, the
feeling in my heart. It is the feeling of something resonating
within me. The feeling of remembering something that I had forgotten
- but do not remember ever knowing."
(All quotations in this color are from~Codependence:
The Dance of Wounded Souls)
When
I first got into recovery at the beginning of 1984, I was confronted
with the Twelve Step concept of a Loving Higher Power. It was
a strange and foreign concept to me at the time. The concept
of God that I was taught about when I was growing up was not a Loving
Higher Power. There is no Unconditional Love involved with a
god who could send his children to burn in hell forever - even as
a child I knew there was something very wrong with that belief.
So, I set out to try to figure out a concept of God that I could believe
in as an Unconditionally Loving Higher Power. In retrospect
I can see that what I was doing was a paradigm shift - a shift to
a larger context - that would allow me to change my relationship with
God, with The Universe, into one that would work for me to help me
want to live instead of wanting to kill myself. At the time
I didn't think in terms of relationship dynamics, I was just trying
to find some reason to stay sober.
There were two memories that my initial search was based upon.
One was the memory of how strongly I had resonated with the idea that
"the Force is with you." There was something that
felt very True in that statement to me. The other was a thought
that had come to me in certain moments of clarity in the midst of
my darkest hours. That thought was: either there is a Loving
Force/God behind this human life experience that I was having or there
wasn't. If there was, then everything had to be unfolding perfectly
- with no accidents, coincidences, or mistakes. If there wasn't
- if there was no God Force, or God was punishing and judgmental -
then I did not want to play anymore.
My intentional codependence recovery started with the realization
of how my relationship with life was being dictated by the concept
of God I was taught about as a child - and still had programmed into
my subconscious belief system - instead of what I was choosing to
believe on a conscious, intellectual level. Focusing on changing
that subconscious programming led me into healing the emotional wounds
in which that programming was rooted. Healing the emotional
wounds led me into doing deep grief work which I discovered involved
releasing energy. The more I became clear that emotions were
actual energy that needed to flow instead of being blocked, the easier
it became for me to get in touch with my emotions and open up to healing
them through energy release.
(Easier in terms of aligning with the way the process really works
- not easier in terms of less painful. What I did learn, was
that it was easier in the long run to feel and release the pain -
and anger and fear - than to keep trying to stuff it.)
Thus, one piece of the puzzle fell into place. Emotions are
energy. Energy has a vibrational frequency. Anger has
a higher vibrational frequency than pain or fear - thus the human
defense mechanism which allows us to turn pain or fear into anger
because it is has more energy mass and therefore feels empowering
instead of vulnerable and weak. Much of world history becomes
clearer just by understanding how humans - as part of trying to survive
- have reacted to fear and pain by getting angry and acting out that
anger.
Another piece of the puzzle started to fall into place when I started
to read books about quantum physics.
"One of the fascinating things about the Age of Healing and Joy
that has dawned in human consciousness is that the tools and knowledge
that we need to raise our consciousness, to awaken to consciousness,
have been unfolding in all areas of human endeavor over time, and
at an accelerated rate in the last fifty to one hundred years.
One of the most fascinating things to me, and a key in my personal
healing process, is in the area of physics.
Physicists have now proven through Einstein's Theory of Relativity
and the study of quantum physics that everything we see is an illusion.
Einstein, in looking at a macroscopic perspective of the Universe,
said in his Theory of Relativity that there are more than three dimensions.
Human beings can only visualize in three dimensions. We can
only see three dimensions so we have assumed that that is all there
is.
Einstein also stated that time and space are not the absolute variables
that science has traditionally believed them to be - that they are,
in fact, a relative experience.
Quantum physics, the study of the microscopic, the subatomic world,
has gone even further. Quantum physics has now proven that everything
we see is an illusion, that the physical world is an illusion.
Everything is made up of interacting energy. Energy interacts
on a subatomic level to form energy fields which physicists call subatomic
particles. These subatomic energy fields interact to form atomic
energy fields, atoms, which interact to form molecules. Everything
in the physical world is made up of interacting atomic and molecular
energy fields.
There is no such thing as separation in the physical world.
Energy is interacting to form a gigantic, dynamic pattern of rhythmically
repeating energy interactions. In other words, a dance of energy.
We are all part of a gigantic dance of energy.
This Universe is one gigantic pattern of dancing energy patterns."
The
Universe is one giant dance of energy. This realization led
to the title of my book: The Dance of Wounded Souls. We are
all dancing energy made up of dancing energy. I realized that
the reason the dance was painful and dysfunctional is that humans
have been dancing to the wrong music (wrong as in not aligned with
the Truth of a Loving Force.) The dance of life for humans has
been grounded in shame and fear, empowered by belief in separation,
lack, and scarcity. These are lower vibrational emotions and
beliefs based on the three dimensional illusion that humans experience
as reality. As long as the dance of humans harmonizes to music
- vibrational emanations - that are rooted in shame, fear, and separation
the only way to do the dance is destructively.
As I did my deep grief work and started to clear up my internal process
so that I could more clearly differentiate between Truth that was
a vibrational communication from my Soul and the emotional truth that
was coming from my wounded soul, I was able to start trusting myself
to be able to discern Truth.
"Feelings
are real - they are emotional energy that is manifested in our body
- but they are not necessarily fact. What we feel is our "emotional
truth" and it does not necessarily have anything to do with either
facts or the emotional energy that is Truth with a capital "T"
- especially when we our reacting out of an age of our inner child."
***
"The key to healing our wounded souls is to get clear and honest
in our emotional process. Until we can get clear and honest
with our human emotional responses - until we change the twisted,
distorted, negative perspectives and reactions to our human emotions
that are a result of having been born into, and grown up in, a dysfunctional,
emotionally repressive, Spiritually hostile environment - we cannot
get clearly in touch with the level of emotional energy that is Truth.
We cannot get clearly in touch with and reconnected to our Spiritual
Self.
We, each and every one of us, has an inner channel to Truth, an inner
channel to the Great Spirit. But that inner channel is blocked
up with repressed emotional energy, and with twisted, distorted attitudes
and false beliefs."
I
was able to have a more trusting and Loving relationship with myself
through getting more in touch with my Spiritual Self, my Higher Self,
and through that Higher Self with God as I was coming to understand
God. I was able to start having a personal, intimate relationship
with my own concept of a Higher Power / God / Goddess / Great Spirit.
I learned to trust the vibrational communications, the feeling of
something resonating within. I was studying Quantum Physics,
Molecular Biology, religion, theology, philosophy, mythology, esoteric
metaphysics, science fiction- whatever was brought into my path to
study. In those studies I was sorting out the wheat from the
chaff - I was picking out the nuggets of Truth from the twisted, distorted
beliefs they were embedded within.
I started writing a book based on what I was learning. This
book was the first book of a Trilogy that was an adult fable about
the history of the Universe. In that book I wrote about different
vibrational levels of reality. I was writing a mystical, magical fairy
tale based on a belief system that made it possible to view life as
fair and Loving from a Cosmic Perspective. The Higher Power
in this belief system is so powerful that everything is unfolding
perfectly, with no accidents, coincidences, or mistakes. And
this Higher Power is unconditionally Loving because we are part of
this Higher Power - not separate from it. We have never been
separate from the God Force. Every human is just a little piece
of the energy of ALL THAT IS which exists in perfect ONENESS because
it vibrates at the frequency of Absolute Harmony that is LOVE.
We are extensions of, manifestations of, this Higher Power temporarily
in human form experiencing life in a lower vibrational illusion of
three dimensional reality. We are Spiritual Beings having a
human experience - not sinful, shameful humans who have to earn the
Love of the Source. We are here to experience being human -
to go through the school of Spiritual Evolution.
"Spiritual
Evolution is the process whereby the energy of ALL THAT IS gets to
experience every aspect of the illusion of existence at vibrational
frequencies lower than the frequency of LOVE. Existence at the lower
vibrational frequencies is experienced by energy fields of consciousness
known as Souls. These Souls exist on the Spiritual Plane within the
illusion. The Spiritual Plane is the highest vibrational plane, that
is the vibrational plane which exists closest to the Reality of ONENESS
at LOVE. It is on the Spiritual Plane that the highest vibrational
frequency range naturally available to human experience is generated
(by the Souls). This frequency range is the transcendent Emotional
energy of Love. This Love frequency range also contains frequencies
which are experienced as Truth, Joy, Beauty, and Light as well as
sometimes being called; the God within, the Goddess within, the Christ
within, The Holy Spirit, etc.
It is this Love frequency that is the Light that guides the energy
of ALL THAT IS through the school of Spiritual Evolution. For the
Soul on the Spiritual Plane projects/extends downward vibrationally
to manifest the soul/Ego which exists on the Mental plane within the
Temporal Plane. It is the soul/Ego which experiences the illusion
of separate, unique, individual identity and projects forth (downward
vibrationally) the energy field of the soul/spirit/ego which actually
inhabits the human body vehicle."
~The Dance of The Wounded Souls Trilogy Book 1 "In The Beginning
. . . " (History I)
In
this Trilogy, I found a belief system that allowed me to believe that
maybe I wasn't shameful - that maybe I was Lovable. As I was
writing this book, I was also doing individual therapy with people.
I was teaching them how to do the grief work to change their relationship
with themselves and life. I saw the Trilogy as separate from
the nitty gritty inner work - until they came together. The
belief system I was writing about from a Cosmic Perspective of the
Human Experience suddenly meshed perfectly with the inner child work
that I was teaching people and learning myself. It was perfect.
It all fit together. From that coalescing of the human emotional
process with the Cosmic Perspective of life came my book The Dance
of Wounded Souls.
Codependence is a reflection on the individual level of the original
wound of humankind - feeling abandoned by God. Feeling unlovable
and unworthy and somehow shameful because of feeling separate from
The Source. We are not separate from the Source - it just feels
like it.
"The Universal Creative Force, as I understand it, is the energy
field of ALL THAT IS vibrating at the frequency of Absolute Harmony.
That vibrational frequency I call LOVE. (LOVE is the vibrational
frequency of God; Love is an energy vibration within The Illusion
which we can access; love is, in our Codependent culture, most
often an addiction or an excuse for dysfunctional behavior.)
LOVE is the energy frequency of Absolute Harmony because it is the
vibrational frequency where there is no separation.
Energy moves in wave-like patterns; what enables movement is the separation
between the valley of the wave and its peak. The distance from
peak to peak is called it's wavelength. It is a law of physics
that as vibrational frequency rises, as it gets higher, the wavelength
gets shorter. The frequency of LOVE is the vibrational frequency
where wavelength disappears, where separation disappears.
It is a place of absolute Peace, motionless, timeless, completely
at rest: The Eternal Now.
The Peace and Bliss of The Eternal Now is the True Absolute Reality
of the God-Force."
Love
is a vibrational frequency. It is our direct channel to The
Source. When we can tune into that higher energy vibration we
are closer to our True Selves. In The Goddess we are LOVE.
LOVE is home. Humans have never felt comfortable in this lower
vibrational illusion - we know from a very early age that something
is wrong with this place. So we try to alter our consciousness
- to raise our vibrational frequency.
It is not bad or wrong that you are an alcoholic or drug addict or
workaholic or love addict or food addict or whatever - it is just
an attempt to go home. We have felt lost and alone and not a
part of - and we did whatever we could to try to transform that painful
level of consciousness into a higher level. The problem was that those
outside means of altering our consciousness are temporary, artificial,
and self-destructive. When we look to outer or external sources
that interfere with consciousness to alter our consciousness, to make
us feel better, we are worshipping false gods, we are giving power
to the illusion - we are not owning our True Self and our own inner
channel to God.
Now that does not mean there is anything wrong with outer stimulation
helping us to access Love. What is dysfunctional is focusing
on the outer or external as the source of the Joy. We can combine
our energy with a place or a person or a group of people or an animal
to form a more powerful energy field which makes it easier to access
the higher vibrational Source energy. What outer or external
sources can do is reflect back to us the Beauty of who we really are
- that is a most powerful way of accessing the Love within ourselves.
We all can do it at times. The easiest place for many of us
to access this Love energy is in nature. Watching a beautiful
sunset or looking out over a magnificent landscape can make it easy
to access the vibrational frequency of Love, Light, Truth, Beauty,
and Joy. Small children can help many of us to tune into the
Love within us. Music, or other vibrational emanations such
as chanting or meditation or movement, can also facilitate this connection.
Perhaps in your relationship to your dog or cat or horse, you can
find the space to tune into the Love within.
What all of these things - from babies to whales to dancing - have
in common is that they help us to be in the moment. It is in
the moment that we can access the Love vibrational frequency within
us.
It can be relatively easy to access Love and Joy in relationship with
nature. It is in our relationships with other people that it
gets messy. That is because we learned how to relate to other
people in childhood from wounded people who learned how to relate
to other people in their childhood. In our core relationship
with ourselves we don't feel Lovable. That can make it very
difficult to connect with other people in a clean and energetically
clear way that helps us to access Love from the Source instead of
viewing the other person as the source. We are so defended,
because of the pain we have experienced, that we are not open to connecting
with others. If we haven't done the grief work from the past
we are not open to feeling our feelings in the moment. As long
as we are blocking the pain and anger and fear, we are also blocking
the Love and Joy. The more we heal our emotional wounds and
change our intellectual programming the more capacity we have to be
in the moment and tune into the Love within.
I will discuss further in the next column in this series, how to differentiate
between looking outside for the source and combining our energy with
some outside influence to help us access the Source within.
In the meantime, try whenever you think of it to be in the moment.
Take a deep breath, let go of tomorrow and yesterday, and see if you
can't find something in your environment that will help you to tune
into the Love energy within you. This is a new age - The Age
of Healing & Joy - and we have greater access to the transcendent
emotional energy than ever before in recorded human history.
It Truly is a time for Joy. A time to change the dance from
one of suffering and endurance into one that celebrates the gift of
life.
"What
is so wonderful, what is so Joyous and exciting, is that we now have
clearer access to our Spiritual Higher Consciousness than ever before
in recorded human history. And through that Higher Self to the
Universal Creative God-Force.
Each and every one of us has an inner channel. We now have the
capability to atone - which means tune into - to atone, to tune into
the Higher Consciousness. To tune into the Higher vibrational
emotional energies that are Joy, Light, Truth, Beauty, and Love.
We can tune into the Truth of "at ONE ness." Atone
= at ONE. Atonement = at ONE ment, in a condition of ONENESS.
We now have access to the highest vibrational frequencies - we can
tune into the Truth of ONENESS. By aligning with Truth we are
tuning into the higher energy vibrations that reconnect us with the
Truth of ONENESS.
This is the age of atonement, but it does not have anything to do
with judgment and punishment. It has to do with tuning our inner
channel into the right frequencies.
But our inner channel is blocked and cluttered with repressed emotional
energy and dysfunctional attitudes. The more we clear our inner
channel through aligning with Truth attitudinally, and releasing the
repressed emotional energy through the grief process, the clearer
we can tune into the music of Love and Joy, Light and Truth."
